#100 Can you believe it’s episode 100?
Today though I am not celebrating my 100th show with bells and whistles… Instead I am getting open and honest as this year has taken it’s toll a bit.
So I wanted to share my lessons I’ve learned from being open, honest and vulnerable, and it can feel scary. But it also feels good.
I also wanted to share with you some simple things I do when I feel I’m stuck in the yuck of it all, to help get through it and come out the other side. Enjoy!
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Guy: Welcome to the guylawrence podcast. I’m your host Guy Lawrence. After building a successful health company and the number one podcast, I decided to do something deemed a little crazy. I let it go. Set a new destination called the unknown and use my heart as a compass. Each week I sit down with great minds as we explore topics beyond conventional health, wealth, and wisdom to inspire and ignite the passion that’s within us all to create the life we truly want. So my question to you is, are you ready to let it in?
Guy: Hello guys and girls. This is Guy Lawrence, of course, your host of my podcast, the guylawrence podcast just in, case you didn’t know, you might be even tuning in for the first time. You’re so welcome, uh, where I obviously have conversations, I could well be on conventional health, wealth, and wisdom to inspire and ignite change in our lives. And I’m doing something a little bit different today. Well, I’ve done it before, you know, a solo podcast where I’m just gonna chat to the mic. Um, and my eyes are closed. My hand is on my heart and I’m just trying to speak from this place. Um, why is it a solo podcast episode today while they’ve had good responses in the past. So that’s one good reason to do it. Uh, but the other one is, is that it is my 100th episode of the Guy Lawrence podcast.
Guy: Boy does time fly. We are at towards the end of 2019, uh, for almost gone into a new decade. Boy, does that amaze you? That amazes me. We are going into a new decade, 2020 and beyond. Um, I started this podcast back in mid Feb. I think I pushed the live button on the episodes in 2018 so, uh, yeah, almost two, whether it be two years and end a Feb in a few months time and uh, it blows my mind and you know, it’s interesting. I really wanted to, I’ve been knowing that this episode has been coming up for quite some time and I’m actually recording this the day before it goes live. Um, which I never do. I normally back catalog episodes and you know, you have them, they’re ready to go. So I’m not scrambling for anything. And I actually wanted to do something special for the hundredth episode.
Guy: Cause for me anyway, and for you listeners, you just, you know, you tune in, you listen, you go. That was nice and, and you go, you go, you know, and, that’s what podcasts are all about. But for me it’s a big deal. It’s a huge deal actually, you know? Um, because, you know, prior to that I had a different podcasts and I wasn’t doing them solo and I was, I can’t remember episodes I had done in that one before I stepped down from my, my old podcast, uh, to this one. But this one, for me, it’s all on my own and it feels very special and I’m very proud of its achievements and, and I really was going to try and do something, you know, I don’t know, something that was whirling around my head for weeks. The day was coming. I was like, Oh, can I, can I do a fun competition?
Guy: Give some t-shirts away or do something really unique? And, and I was like, what do I do? And, and, and to be honest with you that the whole time this has been going on, um, I just didn’t have the energy. I, I’ve, I’ve been actually struggling myself, um, over the last, even I could say, couple of months really on a personal note, um, not everything in my life is amazing. Like I’m, I’m so grateful for it all, but just energetically, um, I’ve been feeling a bit wiped and I’ve, I know I’ve been pushing the boundaries and pushing the edges and, and I realized yesterday, um, hence why this, I’m talking about vulnerability today and my, my hope is for this podcast is to maybe inspire you in some way to think about it as well, and how it can affect you in your life. Because it’s something, every time I come back to my heart, every time I’ve come back to, to the pure essence of the truth of within me, you know, from the practices that I do daily.
Guy: Um, I, I, uh, what can I say? Like I, I always the moment I, I really lean into that 100%, it never lets me down. It never lets me down in any shape or form. And I’m hoping this podcast today is a reminder for that. So as much as I’d love to say, Oh, I’m striving, I’m achieving all these things and, and that’s all great. Um, I’m also sure because you know, I actually did a social media post, uh, put up on my Instagram yesterday. Uh, if you wanna check it out, this GuyHLawrence, um, if you don’t follow me on Instagram and, uh, and talking about these very feelings, I guess I’m gonna share more in depth now within the podcast. And I had quite a, quite a huge response in the last 24 hours that really inspired me to think reality. You know, I need to talk about this a bit more about that vulnerability because you know, um, I’m doing the workshops as you see.
Guy: I’ve, you know, we did three retreats this year so far. Uh, they all sold out, which is for me a phenomenal achievement in our first year of putting on retreats with living flow. Uh, what we’ve witnessed and what we experience is beyond measure at the moment. And I’m actually working hard to figure out a way how we can actually measure the results at a much deeper levels with not just a, as somebody’s testimonial, we can show the results of what’s going on within the body as well. Um, we’ve been going hard with workshops. I’ve been obviously doing workshops more recently, uh, the one day as with Matt Omo and with the, for the living flow. And obviously there’s my leaded in things and, and, and this weekend I’m actually in due process of launching my four week program, which was live Monday, where everyone starting Monday actually.
Guy: Um, you know, and, and I think just from the outside looking in, you know, it’s easy to, especially in the world of email and social media and, and I’ve been doing this a long time and it’s very easy to present one side all the time. Um, and of course you want to inspire change in others, but, but I still think that’s not realistic at the end of the day. I think we need to show all aspects of ourselves. Um, and that for me, that’s what this work is about. Like it’s, it’s, it’s about coming back to that the essence of us and, and not being able to frayed to shine the light on the areas that do need work on. Cause I certainly don’t have it all in the bag and I really hope I’m not perceived that way either. I’m very good at what I do. I’m very passionate about what I do and I have certainly really great strengths, but I also have great weaknesses.
Guy: And one thing I’ve had the good fortune to do is I’ve certainly sat next to her drinks next to kept company of people that have done extremely financially well or they’ve done successful, have sold many New York times best selling books or courses or programs. And you know, what behind it all behind the marketing, behind the persona persona behind it. They are just regular people doing great things and they’ve worked very hard to get there. And, and you know, everyone has our ups and downs. We’re all fallible and I don’t think anyone’s Bulletproof. And, um, anyway, I don’t wanna I don’t think any of us should hide behind that in, in any aspect of the relationships we’re in, where we’re at with work or whatever our situations may be. And for me, you know, the, the straw that broke the camel’s back recently was I was in, um, uh, I just did back to back workshops for mat.
Guy: We just did [inaudible] Camden in Sydney. And then we did, uh, Canberra the next day, which was like a kind of three hour drive to an hour. I don’t even know. My, my, my, my geography two, well had been Welsh, but, um, but interestingly enough, I was biting off more than, than my chew, but for circumstances I don’t want to go into today. Uh, I ended up driving. Um, so, uh, I drove, uh, with my wife and Linda to, to Sydney from, uh, a past Byron Bay, which is quite a long way. Um, it was probably eight hours in the car without stops. And then, you know, so I drove there and then I went straight in and did the back to back workshops over the two days and drove in between. And then I ended up having to drive to Melbourne for three days, uh, and I did all the driving and then, and then driving back from Melbourne back, um, all the way back to Byron Bay.
Guy: And that was like all nine days. And, and by the end of it, I was just, to be honest with you and, but it was already, I’m myself. I kind of, it was just the straw that broke the camel’s back in terms of the way this year had been going on. And then I realized I’ve just been pushing too hard. And, and then from that break and it was like, why am I going so hard? Like what is it was driving me? And then of course the self-inquiry starts to come in from that. And I think that’s where the wisdom is. That’s where the lessons are. And, and the next thing I know for a week I’m struggling, I’m exhausted and I’m kind of having to sit in the funk of it all. Um, and it would be easy to lay blame on the drive or this, the weather or the seat was uncomfortable and all these things that were my mind wanted to go.
Guy: But deep down I knew there was, there was a something bigger going on and, and shifts that are happening and, and it’s time to slow down. It’s time to reflect. And it’s time to, to admit to yourself that, Hey, it’s okay. You know, everything’s going to be that tomorrow. Like slow down. Why? And, and the self-inquiry starts. And I think my, my hope for you is listening to this is that check in. Where are you right now? How are you feeling? Are you running from stress all the time? We just about to go in the crazy season. Are we slowing down a bit? You know, it’s really interesting when we were in, um, the Canberra workshop and by the way Sydney and Canberra workshops where I think of best workshops yet, I mean they were phenomenal. I am, I, I get so moved and touched him talking about what goes on in there and to, to be a part of this and start to see the witness and the changes that are occurring if people are willing to surrender into the present moment, uh, blows my mind and when, when nothing compares to that, you know, and, and that’s what drives me to, to push myself and because I see the impact that this has.
Guy: And, and somebody asked, I think me or motto at the end, cause we sort of opened up with Q and a and everything at the end of the day. And um, to give you context, they asked do you feel the shifts as well and what would, what do we mean by shifts? I mean, the way I look at this work is almost, if you look at it from a somatic perspective for a second, meaning that every S I, this is my belief, right? You know, this is subjective. You can make up your own mindedness. But from what I’m witnessing and seeing and what I’ve experienced with my own body over the years from putting myself through hundreds of hours of this work is that all cells hold information and that information can be traumatic. It can be, um, uh, imprinted within us, you know, and then you start to get onto the realms of epigenetics where, you know, things are influencing the very, the genes within us.
Guy: But without going off on a tangent to bring it back, that we all have issues and traumas and we’ve all sort of perceived reality in a certain way. And we have to send that information via the nervous system into the body. So the nervous system becomes a filter between our perception of reality to the signals we’re sending to the body. And we get really good at it and we condition our bodies, our bodies that way our whole life. And what this work can actually start to do is start to shake the tree a little bit and help nurture that information that might be sort of held within you, uh, within that, that the cells of the body can start to then move. And you know, I believe energy is neither created nor destroyed. It can only move from one form to another. So we’re actually moving it from one form that’s within the cell and then that’s how we can have releases.
Guy: And that’s how this can, this energy can start to shift. And I believe it’s an ongoing, an unveiling process like onions, uh, layers of onions. You know, you slowly pulling it back, pulling it back. But when those shifts occurred, there’s almost like a dam break in or something moves, you know, um, it can almost be like a, you know, I know my jokes about buying an organic Apple and you break into tears because it’s not organic and just because of all these things going on, but you normally have catalysts of events that release something that could have been building up for the last 20 years, you know? And, but when we move through it, it’s absolutely beautiful. And I’ve gone off on a tangent here, but to pull it all the way back to the question is that, you know, I’m in this, this work, this energy all the time.
Guy: I take every single breath with every single person. When we do the breathing exercises, I hold the meditation space. So I’m meditating along with everyone during the meditation, I’m actually standing in mat sound frequency, so my body’s moving through it all the time. I have a membership that I do live meditations where we connect energetically beyond space and time every week and move energy. I mean, that’s what this work for me is all about and it’s not creating a coherence of that energy within us. So for me, and certainly from Matt and Petra and people that I know that are doing this work, so we’re unveiling it all the time as well, you know, and, and I think to be able to, as we lean into this work, to be able to hold space then for ourselves and allow these processes to unfold and that’s where the magic can happen.
Guy: And that’s where we can start to see things with a greater sense of clarity. And I’m feel deeper to too, to the daily things in life and start to appreciate the things more that we have in our life and, and you know, and on and on it goes and we begin to learn more and more. You know, I know for a fact that yes, I’m guy Lawrence, while I’ve, I’ve told myself in galore as you know, in this body, but I’m not the same person I was five years ago. You know, that’s evolving. And what this work does is, is allow me to put the F, the, the fast forward button on that. It speeds up that process. So I’m consciously, my consciousness and awareness is slowly expanding and, and as I learned and then apply and adapt. And I know five years from now I’m going to be seeing the world that are very different level of mind, the one I am right now.
Guy: And that’s where, that’s where I love this. That’s where this becomes amazing and, and allowing it to unfold. And, and for me vulnerability is a very key aspect to it. It’s about accepting that we don’t have to be Bulletproof, we don’t have to, you know, wear this mask all the time because of that’s what we told and shown and it’s okay. And from my experience, human beings, I, I get to work with a lot of them and interact with them. And I think we’re amazing. We, once we start to break down those layers a little bit and that, and that, those masks and that, those Bulletproof vests that we were so heavily, once we started to dig under that and we start to open up and come from the heart itself, we’re really amazing. And you know, that’s why I left the retreat so much because we get to that place and we, we’ve, we get back to our authentic self, the part that is always there, but we might’ve forgotten about it, you know, because of the way life has shaped us or the way we allow it to.
Guy: And I think it, it helps us get, give our own cab, bring our own personal power back, which is, which is really important, you know, and what I’ve found myself to tie all this back into the social media posts and put out yesterday, I, um, I was there writing my email to cause my, um, uh, when this goes out the, the, the um, uh, what am I on about the four week program, the dead, the registration deadlines end in this week. So when I was, I’m sending an email out yesterday and at the same time I’m feeling all these mixed emotions of I feel like crap and here I am. Who am I to be sending this out to encourage others to do this work when it’s making me feel shit right now. And you know, all these things would go in and it’s and I, and in a world of social media where it’s so easy to really just show one side in one aspect, and I’ve got it in the bag and I sit on, I watch people’s feeds and I see it all the time that the, you know, w I think we, we craving for truth in the moment I put it out, I just felt like I needed to write that hope and I would inspire someone else to be honest with a partner or having fun or whatever it might be.
Guy: And then I was getting text messages, I was getting phone calls, I had emails and comments were coming in and it was, it blew my mind because I think we’d all craving that within this. All of us. And my, my suggestion would be to you is who can you speak to, who can you put your hand on your heart to and just say, you know what, this is what’s going on for me right now. And without judgment, without expectation, without an agenda, without how it’s going to go and just speak from that place and just see what comes back, see what shows up because it’s beautiful and we don’t do it often enough. I don’t do it often enough. I’m a, I’m as guilty. I’d been leaving this buildup for a long time and it actually feels good to me just being able to talk about this to a podcast.
Guy: Um, which is kinda weird cause I’m sitting in the room on my own looking around. But uh, it feels good cause I, I appreciate that. I do put content out every week. A lot of people listen and, and it, and it helps people, but I also don’t want to glamorize it either. You know, cause it’s bloody hard work. And I guess that’s the, the realism in me, you know, I’m keeping this stuff grounded because it can get a little bit, um, uh, get carried away with it on times. I think, um, you know, so I wanted to share that anyway. Um, so I thought I’d brought off a few things to ponder on, to consider, um, where you’re at with it and what’s helped me. Um, and the first one is, is, uh, fully own it. Just, just accept you’ve got to fully own it and accept it.
Guy: If you don’t and you lay the blame game around things, I think you’re giving your energy away to other things or the circumstances, mercury in retrograde, whatever you wanna call it. Uh, you’re, you’re giving your power away. And, and I think it’s a way then of us avoiding whatever it is we need to look at so fully on it. I always think back to my one 18 nutrition days, you know, um, with my last company, uh, I found myself laying blame and pointing fingers at certain stages there. And, and it wasn’t until I fully accepted and owned my actions, my choices, um, and where I was at, could I really make true change, you know? And, and, and the moment I did that, it was, it was, it was a beautiful thing. It was huge, uh, for me. And then it wasn’t then of course, about using that as another way of laying on more guilt or laying on more blame and then on myself.
Guy: Cause then I could turn and still create the emotions or feelings just by blaming myself cause I hadn’t that it’s not about that at all. It’s just, it’s just about seeing everything I think with the, with the clarity of what it is and coming back to that. Um, and the other thing is as well is, um, another point I’ve got to consider is, you know, are you replacing stuff with more stuff? So this is what I’d kind of been guilty of this year. So, you know, I look at, I look at developing our own, like for this, for me, this work is about the expanding our consciousness, expanding our awareness. And from that you can start to see things from a different level of mind. And so, so you tend to be able to look at problems differently. You cope with obstacles differently, you see more opportunity.
Guy: You, you, you know, there’s this, this dance that we do, but I think the a maturity and start to see things as they are without emotional highs and lows and sort of find that th the, the through point of it all is, is key. But so you become like emotionally fit. It’s like you, your weight training in every week, but you know, and from, from the guy or five years ago that might only be able to lift 50 kilos can say lift a hundred kilos now. Right? But I still have my limit. So it doesn’t mean I should just keep stacking on more weight, which is what I felt like I was doing this year. So as I was creating space and creating moments in my day, why can’t I just enjoy them as opposed to then having to fill them more and more in push and drive and, and, and on we go.
Guy: So it’s a really a really valid point to look at and, and I know I do replay stuff and more stuff, so it’s like, how can I just be with this? Let me just create some space in my day somehow and just be with it. Is this necessary right now? Do I have to pick up the phone or check this or do that or can I, can I, can I come back, you know, um, come back to this moment. Interesting. Anyway, some of the ponder on, you know, things I like to do when I, when I feel in the muck, when I feel in, no, is that um, I have a mantra and you know, sometimes, and I know it’s really interesting because the more you get involved in this work, the more that those onion layers start to unveil and the more you start uprooting stuff that you might have kind of left and attended to for a long time.
Guy: Some stuff in the closets, right? You know, like we say, you’re shining the light back in a to the shadows of the areas that you’ve, you not wanted to or didn’t even know where there, you know, and this stuff does start to reveal or things. But what I found, it truly is your, you, your thoughts and your feelings. They come and go like the, the weather, you know, they blow in and they blow out. And I normally just before you do really have sweet seasonal, this stuff, I really feel like it is as you keep them and then you unveil new bitten and is like this breathing. So there’s these waves that come in and out. It could be weeks, it could be months and so forth. But um, where was I going with this? Oh yeah. So, so I, there’s always a dark night right before the breakthrough and we actually see at the retreats too, you know, there’s, there’s like this resistance, resistance, resistance and then there’s a pop and then you break through.
Guy: So just that, that resistance just before you pop through the other side, um, is like the, the archaea spirit, if you like. That’s when you end it. That’s when you know you’re in it. But I kind of, cause I’ve done it enough now I kind of go, right, I’m in it. I know this is how I’m in right now. Far out. Fuck it feels bad. Sorry, I don’t sweat it too often, but Hey, that’s all right. And I hold a mantra and and I, and I, what I do is I box breathe. So when it’s like really chaotic, I’ll find a moment in my day and I’ll, I’ll box breeds and, and the mantra. So let me explain the box breath through. It’s very simple. It’s literally like a box where you breathe, you breathe in for three seconds or four seconds, you hold for three or four seconds, you breathe out for three or four seconds and you hold for three or four seconds.
Guy: It’s like breathe in, hold, breathe out, hold. And I might do five or 10 rounds of those just to get back into that parasympathetic nervous system, just to try and send a different signal and get me out the feeling. But I hold a mantra at the same time. And I always say this too shall pass in my mind. This too shall pass. And it allows me to get back to the moment and get back to the observer. This is, you know, stuff that I teach within my letter in program. But as you then become the observer that you really get that third person perspective and your, you can witness it as opposed to buy into it and it helps to slow things down. And the other thing I do when I feel I’m in the MOC is I moved slower. I literally move slower, I drive slower, I become hyper aware.
Guy: Uh, I will even, I will leave them, scan my body, you know, where am I holding tension right now? Even if I’m just, if I’m sitting in a coffee shop or something, can I just relax different areas of the body. Um, and can I slow down? It’s, it’s important, you know, am I rushing from here to there? Am I getting caught up in it all? Can I just break the cycle? You know, the other thing I like to do, I cold shower, get a stimulus in and move the body, you know, so I um, I will move as often as I can. Like I go to yoga or even if I don’t want to, I um, I try and walk around the block. Anything that just helps break those patterns. A, I visualize another thing I do quite often as well as when a, when not muck is really on and if I’m boxed, breathe in and I’m holding the mantra or something, I try and get, give myself some context and perspective Dave and actually visualize myself panning out and I’ll see myself sitting on the chair.
Guy: I might, my eyes are closed. Imagine yourself seen there and then all of a sudden I imagined myself panning out to the, the ceiling of the room and all of a sudden a bit smaller. I’m looking at myself still and then I’ll visualize myself panning out to the, the roof of my house and I can see myself, I’m smaller again sitting in the roof of my roof in the chair of my house. And then all of a sudden I start piling into the, into the sky, it might be a couple of hundred meters, and all of a sudden I see myself, I’m doing it right now. I’m not as close. I see myself sitting in the house, you know, imagine the house had x-ray and you could see right through, but I can see all the houses in the street around me. And all of a sudden I seem a bit smaller.
Guy: I come kind of blending in and I can see other people walking around, you know, and in a pan all the way out. And then all of a sudden I’ve, I’ve passed a close and now I can see the, the country, you know, you could pan out to see the city and then you pan out and you see the country and you see all of a sudden I’m becoming summon part of something so much greater. That’s you. And I pan out. I’ll see the earth and upon out, and I see the stars in the sky. And I do that because it puts it all in. And then my, my problems, my worries, uh, it puts it on to the perspective and I know we’re all having to deal with stuff and if this too shall pass, it really helps me alleviate that, you know? Um, I’ve had so many different as we all have different things, circumstances and things happen in, in our life that you can really get perspective.
Guy: And it really does help you allow into what are the things that really matter. You know, this is where the work really matters. This is where, what are we grateful for right now? What are we tuning into? Where are we focusing our attention? Are we like, are we allowing our thoughts and our feelings and our body to really drive our focus? Or can we get beyond that? You know, can I just feel the gratitude to have the people in my life that I love truly, that are there for me? You know, the of where I live. Like I got nothing to complain about, but we all feel it, you know? So I try and remind myself of that. And the other thing I do as well, um, when I can, and it normally comes just as the breakthrough is, is just do some selflessly from the heart, you know, just pick up a phone, just some you haven’t spoke to in a long time. Ask them how you doing?
Guy: Are you okay? Even like get out of your own way for awhile and be there for somebody else. And that helps, you know, so I’m not sure how to end this podcast after a shed of just sort of my eyes for a second. I’m looking at the, the old screen that’s capturing my audio voice as I speak. And um, yeah, I just, you know, I, I, it just comes back to what really matters for me anyway in life and, and we can all slip, we can all lose a bit of perspective sometimes, but, um, that’s okay. I think that’s just normal. It really is. And I kind of didn’t ever envisage my hundredth episode being I’d done. Now, hopefully this was a positive experience for you listening to this, but, um, I just wanted to share that because, um, to this point for me, and not that I’m after any kind of attention or, or any sympathy or empathy or anything really, it’s just, it’s been a lot of fucking hard work, a hell of a lot.
Guy: And, um, I just want you to know that. Yeah, it’s not all rosy. I love it. I wouldn’t have it any other way. And, uh, I’m very grateful for you for tuning in, listening and I hope that my podcast inspires you, continues to inspire you. Uh, I got a lot of benefits out of it too. Knowing that happens. I learn a lot myself from these podcasts. I genuinely, um, love doing them myself. Um, you know, for those selfless selfish reasons, but at the same time, um, it, I know putting them out there for others is a, is a good thing as well. And it’s great. And I hope you enjoy this episode today and thank you for sharing my hundredth episode with me. If you did let me know what you thought about it. Um, hit me up on social media. GuyHLawrence, uh, on Instagram. Um, hopefully I’ll meet you in person one day at a workshop or a retreat. I will be in Sydney and Newcastle and next week if you’re, um, listening to this before the 23rd, 24th of November, I think it is. Um, that’s all back @guylawrence.com.au. We got one or two retreat spots left on one of the retreats in January. Uh, we’ve, we’re very, very, very, very, very close to opening the doors for our Portugal retreat in April. That’s happening. And um, yeah, come along to that and yeah, thanks for tuning in.
Guy: Please share this with a friend. You finished by two, and uh, yeah, much love from me and I will see you soon.